I would say that I am looking forward to lent this year in the sense that I want to be able to fast in a way where I am looking solely towards the death and resurrection of Christ. In times past I have fasted things, that in a sense I needed to rid myself of an addiction; i.e. my first year of lent fasting(which was early on after God changed my life around) I gave up TV and alcohol. It was during this time that God did a lot of changing in my life. Even though pre lent God had begun transforming me, drunkeness was still a weak point, and I wasted much time watching pointless TV, so I fully believe God used this to help free me from strongholds. However from what I remember I wasn't fasting for the specific point of mourning. I pray that this year I can have a better understanding and revelation of this. I know too many times in my spiritual walk, fasting has been about me, self centered. Maybe sometimes it was noble and I would fast for a situation for a friend, but even in that sense, it was about something that I could do, and not that any of those fasts were bad, but I have had this continual urging to be able to fast for nothing; let me explain. I want to be able to fast not to rid myself of sin, not to earn God's love, or to become more spiritual, but in an act of love back to God, not in a self centered way, but in a God centered way, mourning with the rest of the believers that our Lord was murdered, and just allowing the reality of that sink into my life, and at the same time looking forward to the resurrection in which I live. I feel this lent really being tied to advent in the sense that I feel Bonheoffer's sermon being just as applicable. Delayed Gratification, unsettled waiting and longing. So I have some questions for lent this year: How can I understand the resurrection if I never understand His death. How can I see what God is doing, if I am always looking at myself?
Hope this helps. Fasting is an interesting discipline.